Guess what I didn't do today?/Serious Talk

So I skipped a weigh in today. Not intentionally though! I've been having some back pains and I really didn't feel like walking around a whole hospital just to get weighed in...




annnnnnnnnnnnnd I didn't eat 100% right in the month of April so that could have played a part in it too!

Let's be honest here. I am doing fan fucking tastic on this diet. From April 11th to today I have had some crazy meals that wouldn't really qualify as "healthy".

Let's see:

I ate at Applebee's 2 times. The first time I ordered a tomato basil soup. That's fine, then I ordered some kind of chicken, with sauce, pico de gallo and rice. Had that twice this month. The meal itself was 11oo calories!! (I know, I act like such a female when it comes to calories. adding !!!! points really doesn't help my masculinity... right!!!??? hey you guys, do I sound feminine when I do this?!?!???!!!!). Probably not.

Easter I ate pretty damn good.

My birthday was at Benihana's. I ate a good portion there.

Last night for dinner on Mother's Day I had some Famous Dave's BBQ.

Again this isn't TERRIBLE, but I also wasn't as active as I should have been.

YAYYYYY!!!!!

So starting today I kicked back into routine gear. Had an egg white omelette for breakfast.

Ate a small taco bell lunch. under $5.

At a salad for dinner...

Ate a whole box of large cheez its...




just kidding, they were small cheez its!








NOT!!!


So I'm wasting people's time here but now I'm gonna get into something a little bit more serious.



I hate gapping sentences like this.


Ok this line below this sentence represents a non diet blog section. I've had a lot on my mind lately and there's something that's been bugging me and I really truly need some suggestions, help, anything.
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So on July 17th I will be getting my associates degree only. That's the same degree that people were getting at the age of 20 haha. I'm getting it 26. Doesn't matter because I'm eventually achieving something in my life. I am getting my Associates Degree in Communications at the University of Phoenix which is a big deal to me because it's... well a fucking college degree haha

Anyways, I've been on the phone constantly with my student advisor, counselor, important person, to run paper work to do my bachelors degree. They are giving me a 2 week break after the 17th then right into the Bachelors degree. See that's cool because it's like right after I get my Associates, I'm going right into the Bachelor's. I'm not taking a summer off or anything, it's right away, let's get it done.

Here's my problem.

In our lives we all want to do something, want to be something, and be a part of something we think we can do well. I entered the Communications field with the intent of working on the radio, possibly writing for shows, something along those lines. After a while I realized how many great jobs come with a Communications degree. My friend Tom even brought up being a Guidance Counselor for like middle school and high school kids. That's awesome! I'm a people person so this is without a doubt something that could benefit me and others.

Here's the thing. For the past few years I've gotten to mess around with a lot of women...

haha nah, that's not funny...




For the past few years I've been messing around with computer video editing programs like Windows Movie Make, iMovie, and a bootleg copy of Sony Vegas in which I got in trouble for like 4 years ago haha. I would video tape things, edit them and just show them to friends and whatnot. Over time I've learned a lot about it and actually became pretty good at. I mean it's not hard once you do it 3 or 4 times but it was something I definitely found to be fun. I felt like it was something I'd love to possible do professionally. So as I did some research online, I came across a school called Full Sail University. This school offers on campus degrees and online degrees. They have a Digital Cinematography class which involves filming, editing, making movies and all. It's definitely a dream class for me. I love movies, I love filming shit, I love writing, and I love editing. In 2 and a half years I'll have my bachelors degree in Digital Cinematography. To me that's awesome!

You're probably wondering how they do it as an online class, right? Well Part of the class involves me getting what's known as a Launch Box. This Launch Box includes: The latest version of a Macbook Pro, Sony HD video camera, Final Cut Pro, Adobe CS 5, and Lighting Equipment. How awesome is that especially since Financial Aid will cover it all? I without a doubt think I'm a creative enough person to do this. The only problem is that the school is not an actual college. I did some research and there are a lot of people who actually go to school and feel it's a scam. The reason they feel this way is because they're probably not told that it's actually like a trade school. So when I get my bachelors degree, it might not be legit to some places. That doesn't bother me at all though. Financial Aid can cover the costs, I'll have the equipment to create whatever I want if things don't go well for me.

I'm not gonna lie, this is what I want. I think about it every day and I just want to do it more and more. I'd hate to pass it up and regret not doing it in the future. I'm 26, by the time I graduate I'll be 28. That's still technically young. I don't want to finish up Phoenix right now. I sometimes feel like I'm a failure if I don't continue on with a Phoenix... but at the same time I'll have some kind of degree that will land me some kind of job.

Again, I feel like I'm a creative enough person to go through with this. It's a passion that I have had for quite a while now. I think about people like Kevin Smith who became successful even though he dropped out of film school in Canada. He had the opportunity to create something great and he did just that. I had a phone conversation with the guy from Full Sail University about the making of Jaws, Spielberg, and Jaws the movie itself. I love movies, from horror to comedy, to just outright epic movies. I use the word epic rarely, so for me to not over use it like these trendy hipster kids, is a big deal.

The way I see it, I think it's important to try something that you want to do. Life is short, and if you have the opportunity to go through with something, you should definitely do it. I have the opportunity.


What do you think?