About time asshole!

So I've been pretty quiet on this site. It's been a little under a month since I've posted any kind of update.


but...

It's here now.

Before I go into the weigh in, let me start off by saying that March and the first week of April have been very tough for me. The 5 or 6 weeks since my last weigh in, I have not given my all everyday. Like everyone says, I'm only human. It didn't mean that I cheated and ate something terrible, it just means that I slipped a little bit. The first week of the second month I was packed in my room doing essays. The same week I was helping my mom and aunt get ready for my Grandpa's 80th birthday party. Then there was one week where I was back on track. The week after that my grandpa had gotten sick and went into the hospital for 2 weeks. My mom was there almost every day taking care of him. There wasn't any food shopping going on because my mom was always busy. I know what you're all thinking, "why couldn't my lazy ass do it?". Well instead of food shopping I took care of my self pretty well. A few over the limit things here and there but it was always healthy things that I went overboard with. Whatever though, I did what I thought was right. I exercised (mainly walking around and just keeping active in general) and played catch twice with Frank haha. It's still a work out. With the nice weather finally here, I will definitely be out and about more. Even if it's to school the 80 year old asian guy across the street in Ping Pong. I don't care, he's toast, I'm a pro!!!

So today I was nervous about the weigh in. I just felt like I didn't give it my all and that possibly that could lead to only a short weight loss in 5 weeks. Possibly even gain a pound or 3. I was ready for everything. I wasn't expecting what I was about to see. On the way to the scale, I'd normally out of breath and needing to break. I didn't notice that I walked there without stopping, breaking a sweat, or even being out of breath. We got up to the floor where the scale is. As we approached Magneto (that's what I named the scale), my heart was racing. I just kept thinking about how much of a failure I was going to look like when Anna (my nutritionist) had seen that I put on some pounds. It would show a lack of self control, lack of caring about actually trying to lose the weight and all. It was to the point where I felt like if I did gain weight then showing my face around that hospital in a month would draw some skepticism of me even caring about the diet.

So I step on the scale...














and believe me, my heart was racing...

















I made sure my pockets were empty... no cell phone, no wallet... wearing sweat pants which are lighter than jeans....





















I was hoping my Mets hat wouldn't add pounds... they usually have bad luck... would they bring me bad luck??
















Some how, some way...






















in 5 weeks...






















I'm down...
























now don't get all retarded on me for this... cause i'm telling the truth.



























43 lbs more...

That's crazy right? How the hell did I lose 43 pounds in 5 and a half weeks??? Well another medical thing I've been dealing with in my life is a swelling in my left leg. I've been dealing with it for some years now. So with me losing weight the water build up in my leg is going down a lot. So what part of the weight loss is from the water in my leg... REGARDLESS, it's 43 pounds off of my body. My nutritionist checked her weight to see if the scale was broken and it wasn't at all. I even checked my weight of 4-5 times and it stayed the same but dwindled to like xxx.4 or xxx.8 but it never went higher or lower. So this means the weight is off me, and it's not all fluid, I mean I've been working at it really hard... But as I lose weight my body is getting healthier all around too. So I'm gonna count this one cause it's there. I mean I'm very self conscience about my looks and size and people tell me they can see a difference in me but I don't. I guess I should take a picture right? I mean my bodies not going to look like it's 43 pounds down (58 all together so far) because of the water weight, but it's definitely showing a little bit to people. Again I mentioned in the past blog that i'll never reveal my real weight. I've told people my weight in the past but it wasn't honest, so if you think you know, you don't haha.

If anyone wants to question my nutritionist on my progress or if they think I'm lying about the 43 lbs I'll give you her e-mail address and you can ask her self haha.

It's honestly an insane feeling. I never expected that weight loss in 5-6 weeks but it's real. I even got all teary eyed after today's meeting because it's finally something that I'm doing for me and it's working. I'm one on one with a person who actually cares and motivates me to do better each time. Anna told me today a quote today that I forgot but it had to do with roads, seagulls, clowns... and not being able to fix the past but being able to control the road ahead. Basically she says I dwell too much on what I was doing wrong instead of acknowledging all the things I've been doing right. The big changes, the effort, the whole shabang, I need to give myself some credit and accept that I'm doing this the right way and it's paying off.

For the people who follow and motivate me, I love you all haha. I know there's no haters or anything and I'm not even going to look for them if there are.

I should be talking to my doctor about the Biggest Loser thing sooner than later. No new news, kind of wondering whats up with that... but right now, I'm a winner in my book haha.

Not a Charlie Sheen reference either haha.



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Thank you guys.