Should I even call this a diet anymore? I'm going to be 100% honest with all of you, I haven't been doing anything that I'm supposed to be doing to my full potential. I haven't been writing down my meals, counting calories, taking specific medicines, or even checking up with my nutritionist...
Until today.
Got weighed in again after a 2 month hiatus and I stayed the same basically which isn't bad at all. But it isn't good either. For someone so passionate about my goals, I sure as hell let myself fall into a funk. I mean I don't like making excuses but the month of may really kicked me right in the balls. From my Grandfather being in and out of the hospital with things and helping mom to take care of him, tooth ache, I had a minor back problem, my Grandma from my dads side has cancer and... I dunno, all of these things just seemed to happen right after another. Again there's no excuse. I should always put my life and health ahead of everything else but I can't do that. I've never been able to do that. My problem is I care too much about things. I mean these situations are understandable but then there's the minor things that I let get to me. I can't do that anymore.
My nutritionist was awesome about it all. She understands but had a fear that I was starting to quit and not care anymore which isn't the case at all. I just fell into a slump. Aside from not taking meds, writing things down, and checking my health, I still maintained a balanced diet. I mean I went past my "do not eat" zone a few times but for the most part I stayed within my zone. If I really didn't care and just gave up, I would have gained an incredible amount of weight, but I didn't. That's the end of that.
Tomorrow starts a new day back on track doing things the right way. I'm aiming at 50-60 lbs down by September. My incentive for this chunk of weight loss is a new tattoo that I'm getting. I have no idea on the design but I do need an artist. I don't really need an incentive other than I want to be healthy, but it makes it fun and challenging and also rewarding for myself.
My nutritionist was pleased at the fact that I've been doing things and she encouraged it especially since it gets me out and active more. I told her I went to a concert for the first time in 4 years and I had a great time. I'm going to Atlantic City in 2 weeks and I always walk around a lot there. I'm also going to Atlantic City in the beginning of August to see the same band (Deftones) at the House of Blues and will probably get comped rooms at the Showboat which means that all I have to do is walk downstairs to the venue and watch the band and then go back up to my room. Yes I'm going to a concert by myself, and yes that may make me seem like a loser, but it's something I want to do, so I'm going to do it. Can't wait for all of that.
I'm just doing things that I want to do. Whether it be with people or not. I have to start living my life for me. I turned 26 in May and I feel like I've just been wasting away time with things that I've always wanted to do.
LIST of things I "WILL" do this year come hell or high water:
- Go to a Mets game at Citi Field
- See the Deftones in Atlantic City
- Go to a Devils game
- Go to Pats/Jets game at the new stadium
- Go to a horror convention or two
- Go to a wrestling convention
- Beat Resident Evil 3 ( I've beaten 1, 2, 4, and 5. I know this isn't a big things but it's in my plans haha)
- Get my 2nd tattoo in September
OTHER THINGS:
I will probably start film school July or August depending on how the school works.
I did not receive any kind of update from the Biggest Loser, nor do I care because I'm doing fine where I am.
No I haven't been talking to a surgeon and probably won't for a while.
Thank you all for your continuing support.
arty I think you're doing great! I just finished reading your previous blog and I realize that you have a "do not eat" list, but lets be real, if we cut out everything we like that we aren't suppose to eat chances are we wouldn't be too happy. If you like going out to eat that's fine once in awhile, you just need to know how to limit yourself to how much you eat.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, I know I'm not a dietitian but i think it's a good thing you "spoil" yourself every now and then. Meaning treat yourself to something you like. You've put so much hard work and effort into this you deserve it. I think the tattoo idea is great! That's a perfect example of "spoiling" yourself.
I also think you would be a great at guidance counseling like tommy said. You're easy to talk to and know how to give good advice. You also know how to make someone laugh when they're feeling down.
I think what you are doing is great. Good luck. I miss you and I hope things work out the way you want them to!.
xoxo
love you pooh bear!